Up until 10 years ago I swore I would never homeschool my kids. NEVER! Homeschooling was for the birds … or crazy people who had no life. I can say that. It was HARD. It was BORING. I was homeschooled from 7th-12th grade and I was never doing that to my kids (or myself).
You know the saying “Never say never”? How did I get from there to here? Oh wait, where is here? Some days I still feel like I am totally screwing my kids up. Who do I think I am? What if we miss something important? What if they hate me for life? What if….
What if your kids go to school and YOU wonder the same thing? That’s it right there. What if….
We all wonder if choices we make for our kids will screw them up for life. Well, most good parents question that, anyway. 10 years ago I swore I would never homeschool my kids. I was dragged into it, metaphorically kicking and screaming.
So why did I do it? If I hated the thought so much, why didn’t I choose another viable option? The reasons we homeschool were much bigger than “I don’t like the other options.” Sometimes parents have a knee jerk response and homeschool their kids because of it, but most parents agonize over what the best school choice is for their child/children, and that best choice isn’t always a brick and mortar school. Let me note right here that the best choice isn’t always homeschooling either.
We all want the best for our kids and sometimes it can feel murky and painful to get to what that “best” might be. I am being honest. It was very painful. As strongly as I swore never to homeschool my kids, the KNOWING that this was what God wanted for our family was deep and certain and undeniable. Perhaps you don’t believe in God. If not, you know that feeling of deep certainty that no matter what you want in something you just know you have to do something specific? THAT! I knew and I couldn’t get away from it.
That’s why, when I sat in that room of eager parents who were ready to get this new journey of homeschooling on and eager to invest and sacrifice in their children’s lives this way, I stood up and said, “I swore I would never homeschool my kids. I am being dragged into this kicking and screaming.”
And here I am. Our 7th year is almost complete and I wouldn’t have it any other way. Do I love it every day? Good gracious, no. Is it where I saw myself ten years ago? Not a chance. Does that big yellow bus ever look appealing? Why yes it does.
But I know without a shadow of a doubt that no matter how hard it has been, how much sleep and time I have sacrificed, this is what I am called to. In the end, doing what you are called to do is worth every second.
I swore I would NEVER homeschool my kids. How about you?
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